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ALREADY GONE - Sleeping at last


time
its all about time
plz
stop the sec

old
being old
when i die?
yesterday
i think 
deeply
what if me?
suicide
what kind?
suicide

plz
stop
f*c*ing
time

i dont wanna go back to collage
i dont wanna go back to comunity
i dont wanna go back to home
i dont wanna go back to everywhere
be someone already gone

i hate myself
my family loves me
my friend loves me
my bestie loves me
my BF loves me
maybe my bae loves me

everyone kept supported to me
everyone want me be a leader
everyone want me be a designer
everyone want me be an archer
everyone want me be the best i can be
everyone trust me so deeply
stupid you who trust me

me
i dont wanna be someone
who people loves to
i just wanna be me

stuck
so dark
dark future
no thoughts
many tears
flows like water
or
should i ended now?

my illness
since i was kid
has recurred
again
phobia social
insecure
hates everyone
i dont wanna
meet people
i have to
i have to
i have to
runaway

where are you dad?
i want to runaway like you
let me come with you
i'm tired of this life


I LOVE U my illness,
Odivaazzahra.